“Before 2021, I was only out to my friends and some family. I was aware of who I was for a handful of years, and yet I was absolutely terrified to be out as bisexual in the workplace. I was afraid if I came out as bi at work, it would put my job at risk. I knew I wouldn’t get directly fired, but I feared people talking behind my back or judging me for who I am and feared not being trusted with assignments.
I made the decision to be out as bisexual at the job I started in 2021. Or at least try to. I chatted with my other queer coworkers about my hesitancy to come out. I talked about how it weighed on me mentally: I felt like I was lying to everyone every day. The ‘secret’ that lived in the back of my mind made completing [tasks] difficult at times. It heightened my anxiety to be closeted at work, and I felt like I was constantly walking on eggshells. I felt trapped and depressed at work. I felt like I was silencing myself and self-sabotaging both my career and the work I was producing.
As an editor, one story I worked on was about the history of LGBTQ+ inclusion in the American workforce. I went to my local library and took out several books from the last 30 or more years on [the topic]. Published in 1996, Straight Jobs, Gay Lives completely changed my mindset about being out at work.
It had this line that absolutely blew me away: ‘Fear is the major enemy of gay professionals, we found. Those who summoned the courage to stand up to discrimination emerged with both their pride and their career intact. Thus, we believe, it is never too late to come out. Even after a discriminatory incident takes place, coming out may be a gay professional’s best defense.’ I struggled being out and proud—and even in 1996, the best thing you could do was to be out at work?! Are you serious?! How empowering, and how terrifying!
I felt my anxieties disappear; the weights I felt I was carrying were lifted. I was less depressed because I could be myself. I could speak up in meetings, I could be a voice for bisexual people, and I could put my best foot forward. I was actually happy and excited to go to work every day after reading that book. It completely changed my perspective and lifted my mental health because I didn’t have to hide anything about myself anymore.” —Christie C.